"Scared of love but scared of life alone."

Woah two blogs in one day, I guess I'm feeling inspirational. This is a surprise, even to myself, but there's so much I left out earlier and I was in a little bit of a rush. Since this is my therapy I'm going to babble a bit with what happened this weekend more specifically.

Friday night was hilarious. One of my oldest girl friends came over. No she was not alone, she had Mr. Arbour Mist tagging along and made sure to keep me happy all night long! It was a ridiculous temperature outside so we decided to stay in and do some online gossiping. I'm sure you're wondering what that is exactly. I'm sure you know what online dating is, I sure do! We'll we decided to have some fun with our online accounts on a known dating service that I'm not going to mention. It's nice to actually get to be spoiled a little bit and have men feen over you a bit and you get to read each suitor and decide whether or not he seems like a sleaze ball or if he seems worth a shot. I do have to say though, that we weren't taking it that seriously but it makes for a good time and even better stories. I passed out pleasantly buzzed and happy I didn't have to wake up the next day.

I woke up at 7 am the next day to an extremely loud alert sound. It was my cell phone notifying me that I had a text message. One of my best friends is coming home from the air force ( who I haven't seen in a year and a half!), she landed today, and she decided to text me bright and early to let me know she was in the states. I do have to say I am looking forward to spending as much time possible with her over the next 2-3 weeks! Now that I couldn't fall back asleep, I decided to go upstairs and see what my father was watching. Weekend television is my favorite time to spend with my father. We watch all these different kinds of car shows ( we have a strange obsession with mustangs). I finally decided to get my ass off the couch sometime in the afternoon and went to this new Chinese restaurant with my sister. I love when you walk into a place and you're being seated and everyone decides to stare and watch as you go by, especially when you spot a group of guys you went to high school with... embarrassing! Ever eat something that tastes so good but you can't stop eating it because you want more? That's what happened. It made me pleasantly think about a certain someone, but I'm not going into that. Once I got back home I decided to turn my ipod on, stick my headphones in and dance around my bedroom in my underwear like I was 13 again. I was just praying my father didn't come into my room without me knowing because I didn't hear him knock on the door. After my lovely little workout, I reapplied my make up and headed to my older sisters house for game night. Mr. Arbour Mist came with :) This then lead to a night of laughter and smiles.

Today consisted of sleeping in, movie date with my sisters, and food shopping. I just finished eating dinner ( I made breakfast for dinner) and now I'm de-bloating and talking to all of you. Aren't you just lucky! The inner workings of my mind are confusing even to myself so god bless you if you can keep up. I'm hoping this week flies by and work isn't quit as stressful. Lately I've made some decisions that I'm trying really hard to believe were the right thing. I guess thats the point. We're never going to understand the world, but I guess we're not suppose to.

MW