" A posted note of dreams."

Ahhh Happy late Halloween! How was your weekend? Mine was absolutely amazing. What started off as a slow start turned into one of the best weekends I've had in awhile. Friday night was dull. I stayed in, took a hot bath and caught up on some much needed sleep. Saturday was where it was at! HA

I woke up way too early for a Saturday and made my way upstairs to have my usual morning relaxation with my father. I then got myself off the couch, took a shower, and headed off to see the guys I use to work with at the shop. It made me realize how much I miss working with all them. They were all excited to see me and asked when I was coming back. They brighten up my day and boost my confidence. Sometimes a girl needs to be reminded how great she is.

The rest of the day consisted of walking through sand dunes and going through old freaky factories with Mr. Savior. I say he's mister savior because he seriously has brightened me back up to my sunshiny self. Of course this adventure didn't go without me tripping many times. Also there was a snake... yah I'm not getting into that. I hate snakes!

After much convincing, I got him to come to the Halloween party I attended. We went with a big group of people and I can't remember the last time I had that much fun. All in one night I almost fell down the stairs (shocker), got motor-boated I don't even know how many times, and saw a close friends tits right in my face... hmm WHAT was in that jungle juice?! I promise my life is not usually this intense. I safely got home and passed out drunk and happy.

Sunday was a day of re cooperation (which continued into today) and story telling about the crazy things that happened the night before. My sister actually did fall down the stairs! Hahaha!

Work was intense and I'm happy it's not going to be Monday anymore in about a half an hour. I went to dinner with Mr. Savior tonight and we went and played some pool afterword. The littlest things take my mind off shit, it amazes me and he just makes me feel so much better about myself. Mr. Savior is my cousin by the way and I come from a very close family. I love them to death and I don't know what I would do without them.

There are always 800 different emotions running through my mind all day but as long as I go to bed with a smile on my face I'll be okay. What's that saying? "Never frown, because you never know who's falling love with your smile." Life should be like that. No one wants to be around someone who is sad so I'd rather be happy even if somewhere deep down I'm a little sad. It'll pass. Nobody said it was easy.

The truth is, life is too short and precious to be anything but happy. We can spend our lives being sad or angry over the things that don't work out or over what we don't have but at the end of the day its not about what you don't have but what you do have. Appreciate the things you have and accept that you're going to get let down sometimes. Sooner or later this foreign feeling will spread over you. It's called happiness. It'll lighten everything up again.

I drove home from work today and the sky was a mixture of blue and pink and purple. You know when it looks like cotton candy. By the time I got home it was almost dark out but for about 10 minutes I drove down a straight road and just watched the sky change colors. Its magical how something can change so quickly.

One step at a time right? That's what I always tell myself when things get rough. I have this tendency to forget my strengths. It's in my loved ones that I remember what I'm made of. If I didn't have them to remind me, I'd probably crumble. I have the power to do anything I put my mind to. So I'm gonna get off my lazy ass and make my dreams come true. I don't mean the little shit, I mean the big stuff. There's no better time than now to do everything I dreamed off. I have this montage on my wall of posted notes. They all have different things I want to do before I die. I think it's time to start doing them and one by one taking them off the wall. Maybe replace them with pictures of proof that I did it. Well see. I'll figure it out, in the mean time it's time to start really living my life. I AM a twenty something year old with a big smile and some killer legs... what else do I need?? HA! Until next time, Over n' Out!

MW