"If love is ocean wide, we'll swim through the tears we cried."

I'm starting to worry that I'm getting writers block. I tend to forget to write about the important stuff because I'm too busy living it. I have to remember that the good stuff is worth writing about. I like to write about the bad stuff because that way it's at least out of my mind, but just because I write about the good stuff doesn't mean it's going to be lost from my mind.

On that note. Things have been going a lot better than they were 3 weeks ago. I've noticed more and more the people in my life that love me and I'm grateful more and more each day. Life's too short to not recognize the good things we DO have.

My best friend, Miss Air Force. She went back to Japan. I didn't even say goodbye. I miss her already. We had a really great couple weeks and I have to say that I'm really glad that she was here when things were falling apart around me. It's funny how some things work out. I was worried that I was going to be too occupied with other things and I would neglect to spend time with her, but I spent all my time with her and I don't regret one part of it.

Last week I went on a date. He was nice. That's all I can really say though. His car smelt like cow shit ( I didn't judge), but if that wasn't enough to turn me off him talking about how women "just date him to have someone good looking on their arm" (as if he is gods gift)surely ruined my appetite for the evening. I straggled to my sisters afterward with everyone to have an amusing night of drunken stupidity. I was able to forget Cow Shit Boy and flirt with my ex boyfriend who was there for an ego boost(don't judge).

I spend the next day hung over and doing absolutely nothing, it was productive!

This past week went by nice and fast though, especially with the nice holiday Thursday. ( Thank you veterans for keeping us all safe )

I spend the day about 45 minutes from home with some good friends and enjoyed a day of doing nothing. We walked around shops, got some lunch, went to the mall, checked out men. Which reminds me...

We stopped at a little lunch nook for some grub. This attractive construction worker came in. I noticed him quickly but was so absorbed in whatever I was talking about, I didn't pay much attention to him. That was until he had gotten his food and started walking toward his seat. I glanced at him, he nodded, and smiled. I blushed and briefly imagined him grabbing me, kissing me intensely, and throwing me on the table to take me right then and there. Hey a girl can imagine. Then as we left, he sat sideways in his chair and continued to stare with one eyebrow raised as I put my jacket one. My fantasy popped back into my head. Thankfully we were going outside for some fresh air because OH BOY, it was getting hot in there. I laugh at it now but damnnnnnnnnnnnn! haha

We then went to the movies ( sneaking in our fast food in my GIANT purse, everyone does that right?) and saw a movie I had already seen. Not that I minded because any movie that makes me laugh is worth seeing over and over and over.

Today has been interesting. I woke up early and decided to catch up on two weeks of recorded shows that I have neglected to watch. My father came out ( upset that I claimed the television because he usually gets up before me and claims it himself)and we started talking about men. We got into a heated argument about how my mother recollects her and my fathers courtship before they got married. He swears he knew he wanted to be with my mother, but that he didn't want a girlfriend. She swears he didn't want a relationship or a girlfriend. Either way, he smartened up, and she lowered her expectations and here they are 22 years down the road and still passionately in love. I can only hope and wait for the day to come along when I can argue with my husband about how things went down when we were dating. haha

I then proceeded to go get my oil changed and visit with my garage boys that I can never get enough of seeing. After, I picked up Mister Savior and we went to clean my car. It's now nice and clean :) and sexy of course! We went and got some subway and now he's looking at me while I write this saying to himself, "LETS GO OUT!" haha But he's funny if he thinks I'm going out tonight.

Ever just have days when all you want to do is catch up on some sleep? That's what I need! My job is draining, my emotions have been even more draining, and all I really want to do is snuggle with my big comforter ( haha ) and shut my little cat like eyes and drift of into my unconscious where Mister Sexy Construction Worker makes me feel like a woman! HA I think my non existent sex life is getting to me...

Really though? I want something intense to happen. I've been catching myself daydreaming constantly. I think up little scenarios in my head that I want to happen. They're not really crazy things, just intense.

Anyways, I should go entertain Mister Savior... he may stop hanging out with me if he catches on to how boring I really am! ;) Just kidding, he's family, there's no getting rid of me! :D

Until Next time, Over N' Out!
MW