Crazy. That's honestly the only way to describe my life lately. Between work, appointments, working out, and every day errands, I swear I should get an award for my multitasking skills.
Work has proven to test my limits. I think my company is trying to make me crack at the seams. The busiest time of the year and the work load has pretty much tripled since the beginning of the summer. Thankfully the group of people I work with are more colorful than ever which makes every thing bareable. Between gossiping about our adventurous weekends and laughing about our ridiculous nicknames for each other and things, like Big Red and Boontata (spelling?), the day flies and I leave every day with a smile on my face... well most days that is haha
I've been on a new work out obsession. If I don't get in some kind of activity, I feel like a big pile of shit. This weekend I decided to try out my mothers Pilates machine that has been collecting dust in my basement. I made the mistake of trying it without watching the demo DVD first. Note to anyone who uses a exercise machine for the first time: READ OR WATCH THE MANUAL! I'm not going to get into the gory details, but it ended with me sitting on a bag of ice for the rest of the day wishing I wasn't so conceded about my non Pilate skills haha Once I watched the demo DVD and learned the work out routines, I became obsessed. It's my new love and the only thing I'm allowing to open my legs with out hesitation! haha
Other than that so much is coming up and I can not wait to tell you about how it unfolds. With the long weekend coming up and the holiday, I plan on being intoxicated for most of it. Friday night is still open, but parties are lined up for the rest of the weekend, which means a lot of mishing ( a term one of my girl friends and I came up with for "man fishing"), a lot of drunken laughs, and shit ton of eating the best kinds of food. You only live once right?!
Being single has been a pain in the ass but such a blessing at the same time. I don't feel guilty about flirting with the guys that come through work everyday (there's at least 3 a day!), I don't feel obligated to invite my other half to everything I go to, I don't worry about what someone else is going to think about every action I make. I can breathe, be independent, come and go as I please. Please myself and not settle for anything I don't feel I deserve.
Dating's a bitch and no one can tell me otherwise. It's awkward, most times uncomfortable, and you're potentially putting yourself out there just to get burned all over again. My best advice to any woman going through a breakup, take you're time! No man needs to fill a void in your heart, fill your own void! You're going to date again and the next guy may not make your heart skip the way your ex did but you went back out there and maybe it gave you some confidence, maybe it gave you a laugh, maybe its just another story you get to tell but don't rush it. We make the mistake of trying to find someone to replace the last person and it's not getting over anything, it's pushing the past in the closest where it could come back out and bite you in the ass at any minute (i.e ending up going back to your shitty ex that really doesn't deserve you). Learn how to be independent, not alone but independent. Very rarely are you ever going to really be alone, it may not feel that way but it's true.
I spent this past week listening to multiple girls tell me their stories about guys who came in and out of their lives in a matter of weeks, months, years, and I started to realize that all these woman were amazing in their own special ways but they were all burned in the same fashion. Love came and went almost as quickly as they found it. I asked them how they got over it, they all told me time. Isn't that the expected answer? But I also noticed that not one of these girls were in new relationships. I asked them if they weren't over their ex's and they all told me in different ways that they were over them, they just didn't meet someone worth fighting for like that again. I found it inspirational. Maybe we should all remember we're our own saviors and our lives are only what we make it! So make it fucking juicy and worth remembering!!!
Until Next Time, Over N' Out
MW
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